Sunday, May 8, 2011

Swollen Feet

I'm  kicking for life so hard that my feet are swollen. My eyes are welled up, passion built tears waiting to explode. My stomach turns, can I stand another letdown? My head hurts, increased cranial pressure due to constant information overload. I’m shaking, lack of sleep and a wondering mind makes the nerves jumble. My muscles are sore and tired, but I can’t stop, “be the example you want for your patients.” I must make time to meditate. If I free my mind, the rest will follow. Thank you EnVogue.

Welcome inside my head and body. Life as a 3rd quarter chiropractic student has been quite the ride. There have been moments of depression/excitement, failure/success, and confusion/discovery. I’ve been up, down, and all over the board. A mess at times but relentless always. My spark for the profession keeps me always wanting to know more, which is great in one sense, but dangerous in another. Maybe it’s more efficient to set your scope of practice right out the gates and stay focused on one way to do things... but that’s not me. I question. I need to FEEL the truth. I want the knowledge to resonate so strong that it speaks not just to me, but through me. So, I keep fighting. Failure is not an option.

 Just what am I doing?
-Currently enrolled  in 28 units of class.
-Attend the following clubs: Profession Applied Kinesiology (finishing the 100 hour PAK certification program next weekend), Neurology, Integrated Health Care, Toastmasters, and drop-ins on a few others when I can.
-Participate in Band of Brothers, a philosophy group that meets on Tuesday nights to hear principled chiropractors via teleseminars.
-Started my own “club”, Adjusting Ninjas… Mission: Become a subluxation assassin.  Via Adjusting Ninjas, I also started to interview some killer kiro’s on what makes for that magical adjustment.
-Read as much philosophy as I can get my hands on and attend as many adjusting seminars as I can afford.
-Train chiropractic, always. Workout, 5+ times a week.
-Formulated EPIC workout Sunday. Every Sunday I design a workout that I wouldn’t think I could complete and then break my previous ‘boundaries” with every successful finish.
-Planning and trying to raise money for a Spinal Mission to El Salvador this summer.
-Doing my best to keep in contact with all those I know and love.

So, what am I thinking?
…. For that, expect a follow up :)

In Love and Chiropracrtic, Future Dr. J